The last seven days were wonderful. Our good friends Anlie and Paul Dicks arrived on my birthday - surprising me with a beautiful recipe book stand from Carrol Boyes (I love her stuff!!). The weather in London is glorious and on Saturday we all went to Madame Tussauds and in the late evenings (when the sun is still shining at 9pm) we try to solve the whole world's problems. I am a bit jealous, they left for Paris this morning on the Eurostar - but I do hope they have the time of their lives!
Sunday we went to the morning service of the SA Congregation in London. The minister gave the most beautiful sermon on hope - just what I needed for the week ahead. And then we took part in communion. For me personally it was so special.
Last night Andries took me to see Les Miserables, the musical. It was FANTASTIC! Part birthday gift and part "something nice before Wednesday".
Today, the day before the first chemo session, I am like a mother hen. Cleaning the house, washing, drying and ironing clothes and making sure the fridge is packed with food for everyone. I can just predict that one of the difficult things for me is going to allow people to take over tasks on my behalf. And it is silly, I should pretend I am on holiday..... though, in this case, I'd prefer to NOT be on this particular holiday.... You see, the funny part is that I don't feel ill at all. The only thing I feel is the lump. I am sure the chemo will change all of that, making the lump disappear and making me ill.
I am feeling as apprehensive as in the days before the boy's c-sections. I know that it doesn't matter how much I read or talk to people, nothing is going to prepare me for what is coming, almost the same as having a baby. Only this time the nausea and body aches will be after the procedure.
Even though I have breast cancer, I feel so blessed. We are part of a wonderful care group. They already arranged to bring us supper every night, for at least the first month. Woman (all super woman for surviving cancer) had made contact with me and told me their stories of healing and hope - all warming my heart so much! Friends who just jump in to make the load lighter. I am SO grateful to all. But most of all to Andries. He is such an inspiration and is helping me so much to cope with everything. Every moment putting me first - I love him dearly....
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